The wings of summer had been botched by humongous
rain-clouds, as peals of sunlight remained streaked against the forlorn
tapestry of the unknown.
The gallows were being opened. The glint of the metal dashed
against a pair of chestnut-brown eyes, searing through a horrific melange of
paradoxes.
Aware, yet oblivious. Cognizant, yet deranged. Willful, yet
carefree. Mystic, yet worldly…
Those very eyes that had betrayed nothing, that had retained
an unnerving state of emotional equilibrium, an eerie degree of poise, had just
shed their inscrutability.
But with no spectators. They were alone, awake to the
realization that an aura of self-composure had just been penetrated. They were
free from public scrutiny. But were they free from judgement?
Thoughts swiveled in
concentric circles through eyes that could give away as easily as they could
shield. The foremost was this: Someone is
about to be judged who is completely alien to judgement.
That was true. If eyes could disguise emotions, what not
could a slight swing in the gait, a light dimple on the cheek, a breezy,
cocksure voice, do? And if that was not enough to put others off their guard,
complete disregard and sure-shot insolence were reciprocated without
hesitation. And then nobody cared.
Maya trembled as she recalled Professor Whitney’s words,
“Introduce your father to me as Bill Gates, and then we’ll talk.” So exceptions
could be made if there was some support on the ancestral front. Or if there
were solid connections, material assets, a palace in Rajasthan or a benefactor
at Cambridge… if there was anything, to sum it up, that could be used to bribe
the gaolers.
Assets, connections, finances…it all boiled down to one
omnipresent evil.
Money.
Which had got her through every day of her life, but had
never been her own.
And now that she was about to depart, it hardly made any
difference. But what about that acrid taste that would last forever? Could the
pungent traces of remorse be bitten away? Could the bristles of incompleteness be
brushed away? Could the raging turmoil that was soon becoming her, be wished
away?
Maya knew the answer. Yes. They could.
She swung her arms and jostled against the iron chains that
were already strained under the tyranny that her turmoil was inflicting on
them. As they slapped against the bronzed wall, an echo filled the room, being
carried on the warm currents of the wayward wind. “There are days when
vengeance can speak, but shouldn’t. There are words that pain can utter, but
mustn’t. There are actions that vehemently seek implementation, but are best left
alone.”
“Who am I and where will I go next? Is there someplace where
I will fit in? How handsomely will I be paid, even if I do belong someplace?
What matters anyway? Why am I asking questions that I know will have no bearing
on my very own humdrum daily soap-opera?” flitted a feeble but firm voice
intoned with all the affectation it could gather.
The effect of this sequence of events was too much for Maya,
and she burst out laughing. But even her chortle proved overbearing. She
briskly decided that if she overdid either the pining or the guffawing, she
would be feeding the other and it would end up being a melee of nonsense that
could challenge even her.
And suddenly the pained limbs felt the nudge of strong metal
giving away. Like currents that had beat a hasty retreat on the command of the
moon. Like the changed minds of courtiers who had been serving a vile ruler.
Like feeble-willed parliamentarians who approved a bill but didn’t.
Oh, God, of course she was free! No one was going to be
hanged and no one was going to venture close to a metre of circumference from
her.
“Why do Angry Young Women like me have to be blessed with such
a teasing sense of humour!” Such tempered wrath fed through and through, was
simply wasted with a funny bone tingling here and there.
That very sense of humour dangled in her dreams, of course, but
the hustle-and-bustle of the everyday world threatened to keep it muted. The
Angry Young Woman would shine yet…
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